Miracles do happen in Life...

Do you believe in miracles? Have you ever experienced something out of the box? Something which made you believe in the presence of some higher authority around you? That supreme power, which is sitting there and controlling us, even I never use to give it a thought. But then few days ago I happen to experience a series of events which actually changed my perspective towards it.

I am not an atheist nor am I a theist. My conscience always lies between faith and science. But there are certain mysterious things in this world which changes the course of someone’s lives. And when you are the one who’s witnessing it from a distance then nothing could be better than that.

Over past centuries and centuries, people tried hard to solve those riddles about life. But then not everything can be known to mankind. And when we are on the saturation level of discovery we start believing in something. Something very unpredictable, some name it as GOD, some gives scientific theory and some doesn’t believe in them at all. And this belief often leads us to something really good or maybe something really bad. That obviously depends on the choices that we make in your life.

I have known a guy since the beginning of my college, very unpredictable guy I tell you. We are done with our third year of college and placements are coming up which would decide the fate of many people. So this guy had a CGPA of 5.34 till previous semester with two back logs. In order to become eligible for placements one need to have minimum of 6.0 CGPA with no backlogs. So he had to do something out of the box this semester and come out with flying colors. Whole semester this guy had his own fun, most of the time he was stoned and didn’t care to attend the classes. His friends lost hope on him and they thought he won’t be able to make the cut. Being an observer I kept on doing my work from a distance and the good thing I liked about him was he never showed anyone about his problems. Always kept a smiling face, his family had a lot of expectations from him and he was not sure whether he will be able to fulfill them or not. He never told his parents about his situation. Every day he kept on motivating himself, that yes he can do it. In the back of his head there was always a question popping out every now and then. 

“What if I’m not eligible for placements? What will I do then? What will I tell to my family?”

And he never dared to answer them. He just kept a straight face and told himself that he’s a great finisher and he will make the cut this time, because he don’t have any other choice.

The whole semester passed by in a blink, he managed to cope up with the subjects and write his exams well enough to get good grades but his one paper in which he had backlog wasn’t satisfactory. He was scared that this might ruin the party. Then all his hopes would go in vain and he will lose his once chance which may be the deciding factor of his future.

He needed 7 GPA in the current semester and clears his backlogs. The vacation got over soon than we would have thought and seventh semester kicked off with great enthusiasm. There was something which made him out of the crowd and that was his self-belief. He believed that he has given his best shot and now everything lies in the hand of that supreme power.

Then one fine evening, when our results were announced he came running towards me and hugged me tightly. He said,

“I scored 7 pointers in this semester, cleared all my back logs. My CGPA just crossed 6.0 and I’m eligible for placements.”

If anyone else would have said that then I would have just gave him a nod. But the intensity in his voice was so much that I hugged him back. There was a hidden pain in his voice which he never showed to anyone and when he did what he believed that he would do, his happiness knew no bounds then. I never saw this guy so happy in past 3 years of my college life.

He continued,

“I can’t explain you how I am feeling now. I have never felt so light ever in my life so far. I am feeling as if someone has just removed the piles of stones from my head. And just wait and watch I will bag a job and shut their mouths completely who said that I will never make the cut.”

“All the best man.” I said

I wished him good luck and walked away. I needed sometime alone to think about his experience. Wow! I reflected. Now that was something, miracle really? I mean do I have to believe in that now. Not that I doubt his caliber, he has more potential and he can score more easily. But the series of events that happened so far leaves me with no other choice than to believe in the fact that sometimes in life, miracles do happen.

All we have to do is, keep believing in ourselves and give our best shot as if it is our last. Keep on pumping the positivity inside you and it will reflect around you. There were many people who scored 9 pointers, 9.8 pointers but I only looked at this guy. People who top the university have a habit of doing that only. They have never faced failure in life, and they don’t have the courage to withstand the storm that may hit them in coming future. And needless to say if they were in his position they will never have made the cut.

“One who believes in himself can make the world go round.”  

The day is not too far

It was 11:00pm at night; she was tired more than usual and felt sick. She decided to take a nap. As she lay down on her bed, closed her eyes she felt pukish. She got up quickly rushed to the washroom and puked her lungs out in the sink. It was the start of her third month of pregnancy and the whole pukish thing has become so common for her now that she didn’t become restless at all. She washed her face and came back to her room, sat on her bed and opened her diary where she has jotted down few names for her child. She always wanted to have a baby girl but then her mind drifted to all those incidents which happened last year in our country gave her chill down her spine and sweat beads on her forehead.

Lately the condition of female fraternity had been really bad in our country. In broad day light such in human rape cases have come into the picture and the culprits are escaping freely given the fact that we have a very diplomatic society and a corrupted system. Her blood pressure shot up for a while and that made her more paranoid with every passing second. She closed her diary, put it aside, switched off the light pulled up her quilt and drifted into a deep slumber.

And she saw a dream…

5 years later…

She was residing in Delhi with her husband and her 5 year cute daughter Vidya. Vidya was the prettiest girl in her family with green contrasting eyes, doll like face and her exquisite features made her look adorable. Vidya was a jovial girl who loved to play around all the time. Watching her play like that her mother felt more satisfied. She saw her own shadow in Vidya and that gave her immense happiness. One day Vidya came back from her school and she was crying. When she saw her mother she hugged her tightly and cried her heart out. Her mother could feel that Vidya was shivering. In fact she was terrified.

“What happened honey?”

But she kept on crying. Vidya was taken back into her room and her mother tried to make her sleep. Once she was sleep, her mother got up and enquired in Vidya’s school about her sudden outburst. No one had a clue what she was talking about. After a while when she came back to Vidya’s room, she was shocked to see blood coming out from Vidya’s thigh. She quickly took a towel and pulled her frock up and then the sky fell over her head and land escaped from beneath. The blood was dripping down from Vidya’s vagina. Vidya’s mother felt weak on her knees and fell down, tears made their way out of her eyes piercing her heart. She yelled, she cried and she screamed that made Vidya awake. And then Vidya narrated what happened while she was coming back from her school.

Her school got over at 3:00pm and she boarded her school bus. The school bus dropped her off at her usual bus stop where a stranger who must be 40 years of age offered Vidya some chocolates. Being a 5 year old kid she jumped out with joy. The stranger then told her that he will drop her home in his car and then the thought of going home by a car made her more excited and her happiness then knew no bounds. They got into the car and after a while the stranger stopped the car in a deserted area, tied Vidya with the seat belt and raped her brutally. Vidya who was not even aware what rape meant couldn’t react and her pain was suppressed into cry. Once she was dropped near her house she ran upstairs and hugged her mother.

And she woke up with a jerk, checked her watch which said 4:00am. She gulped down a glass of water and being terrified by the dream she waited for the sun to come out. She took bath and left for the hospital at around 11:00am. After reaching the hospital she immediately rushed to her doctor and said,

“I want to abort this child. I don’t want to give birth to my child who will be abused, molested and raped in our society later on in her life.”

The condition of our country is same and if nothing is done now to stop such inhuman acts then that day is not too far when people won’t be ready to give birth to a girl only because they are scared that their daughter will face the same things in life what Damini, Nirbhaya and other victims faced. Have our conscience died within us? Who will fight for these victims? Our diplomatic society? Or the corrupted government? If we want to see a change around us, it’s us who will have to take the charge of bringing a change in our society, in our system. This is a waking call for all of us, if not now then probably never.

With Time, We are losing humanity…

Life has moved up quite fast and seldom we give time to ourselves, forget about others. In the era, where our whole life in entangled in chasing something or the other, all the time I think we are losing the grip. And there was this fine Saturday evening; as usual I went out for a walk just after it got dark. On my way back I had to buy some stuffs but I was low on cash so I went to an ATM. In the meanwhile when I was busy withdrawing cash from my account in the parallel universe something was happening.

A physical handicapped guy fell down from his bike (those ones which are especially designed for those people) while trying to hop on.

As I came out of the ATM at a distance I saw a crowd gathering up. I made my way through the crowd to get a glimpse of what was happening there and what I saw left me dumbstruck. An old man was trying to lift that handicapped guy while everyone was staring at them blankly. No one offered their help and I couldn’t resist I ran towards the old man and tried to help. But our attempts kept on failing because the guy had a huge physique. My eyes looked everywhere in search of help but what I got back was naked eyes staring blankly at us. That gave me shiver down my spine, I looked at the old man he looked tired. I gathered up the courage from every parts of my body, held the guy by his arms and in one stroke I helped him to get back on his bike.

Once he settled down on his bike, he held my hand and started crying and he cried his heart out. He cried not because he was handicapped, not because god made him that way but he cried because he lost faith in people and humanity. When he was lying down in the middle of the road no one had the courtesy to offer him their help apart from the old man and me and the fact that people made him realize today that he is just a burden on this earth pierced his heart and shattered his will to fight for life. He cursed himself and said, “I don’t want to live here anymore!”

I patted on his back to make him feel better. As the scene was over the crowd started moving. I wanted to scream, I wanted to yell at them but I looked into their eyes and smirked at them making them realize that though you can walk you are normal but you are good for nothing. And it embarrassed them so much that no one was able to look up directly into my eyes. This is our world where we don’t respect humanity and we aspire to reach the heights.

As I walked back to my house I felt really bad, if this is the beauty of our world which people talk about then I don’t want this, if this is the way people has become then I would love to stay isolate in the vicinity of my own solitude. This is what this world has become – way too materialistic. And with time, we are losing humanity from ourselves.

The queen of innocence…

In the crowded bus, I saw your face,

I couldn’t help much but my eyes to let you gaze…

The strand of hair that fell over your eyes,

Followed by the blink made my heart beat twice…

The innocence that your face had,

Was quite enough to make me mad…

I couldn’t help much but my eyes to let you gaze,

In the crowded bus I saw your face…

Petite figure long hair,

Rosy lips and milky fair…

Wrapped in the arm of innocence,

Lost in your soothing fragrance…

You vanished somewhere I don’t know why,

My heart screamed for you and uttered a cry…

My eyes searched for you everywhere,

But it couldn’t find you anywhere…

Lost in the crowd, I recall your face,

I couldn’t help much but my eyes to let you gaze…

The Mesmerizing Beauty…

Rosy cheeks, Moist eyes

Chilly weather, filled with ice…

Sweet voice, soothing fragrance

Mesmerizing you, And mesmerizing

Is your kohl lined eyes…

Cute smile, lovely lips

Long hair and your black pea eyes…

Often they,

Fill me with life…

Oh you mesmerizing beauty,

You make me feel alive…

Lost in your aura,

I wonder often…

How things would be,

When we are together…

My heart always comes to a halt,

When my eyes looks into yours…

Hey! Hey! You mesmerizing beauty,

Don’t make me mad…

Why She had to face everything???

We have entered into another new year, another milestone achieved by us, a year with lots of hope and desire for each and every individual. A spirit to do something out of the box in their life. But there lies a harsh truth, an untold story in a small part of a very beautiful city of India. Surat being one of the most efficient places of Gujarat attracts not only people from other states of all parts of India but also people from abroad. With time it has been developed into a city where every people dreamt to stay for a lifetime. But in those lanes there lies a story which shocked me when I came to know about it.

A girl of age not more than twenty two got married into a family who were farmers by profession and were good at it. It’s not been even a whole month of her marriage and the girl was most of the time admitted into the hospital due to some health issues. And when she was back at her in-laws place she was locked between those four walls with all the household chores to look after. Her health demanded some serious attention but nobody was there to look after her. Every night when she went to sleep after a long and tiring day, all she did was cried silently on her bed. Her husband was not even bothered what she wanted from him, what she wanted from her marriage and what she wanted him to do for her. He was not even bothered to ask her how her day was. Every morning she would wake up early by 4am and was busy whole day with the household work. Her health was becoming duller as the days passed. She thought if she gets pregnant then probably she might escape from all the household chores that she had to do it alone for a while and she could spend some time with her husband. And she had to do it. Soon the reports came and she was pregnant. And she was only twenty-two. But there was something else written in her fate. Due to her ill health her body was not ready to adapt the sudden change and it was not supporting her to deliver a child. And so to avoid this problem later on doctor suggested her to undergo abortion or else she won’t be able to deliver that baby. Being beaten down with the anomalies of life she had to do it. She underwent a surgery and was in hospital. The shocking part was not even a single day her husband came to ask her or check on her. Not even anyone from her in-laws came to check on her. Sadly the girl had to return to her home with her mother. Half of her time would pass moaning in pain and the other half in crying, cursing her fate that why on earth she took the step of getting married to someone like her husband, why she decided to leave her own house at such an early age and take care of a family where everyone is a complete stranger to her? Her father couldn’t see her in this condition and asked the boy’s father for an explanation. And the reply shocked me even more, “Half of the time your daughter is ill, we married our son to your daughter so that she can take care of our family but we are the one who is taking care of her, paying the hospital bills, paying for her medicines.” This harsh reply shattered the girl’s family and every now and then they would try to convince the boy’s family.

Now just think about it, we are in 21^st century where we brag about our development, our economic growth, industrialization and what not. We just think that we are getting developed but as the time is passing by the condition is getting worse. And government is not the one to blame for, it’s us the people. When we will change our mentality, when we will actually start respecting women. We were born from the womb of a woman why we often forget that, she suffered all the pain for 9 months to bring us out in this world and we are doing such shameful acts. And this is not just any individual story, there are many such girls who are married at an early age, and after few months they are kicked out from their own house. A girl leaves her own house and takes the responsibility of someone else’s house and family. Till then that family is a complete stranger to her but still she wakes up early in the morning, prepare breakfast for everyone, prepare lunch, wash clothes, wash utensils, prepare dinner and after cleaning up everything she is the last member to hit the bed. If you cannot respect her atleast respect her work that every day she does it for you, for your family. Isn’t it our responsibility to take care of such an angel? I feel sad whenever I hear such stories, and these are the only reason why girl often use this phrase, “they don’t trust boys coz all boys are same.” Because of few sick people the whole male fraternity is to be blamed everywhere.

Be like a human, respect women and if you can’t then become a sanyasi because there isn’t any place for people like you.

It's never too late...

I was talking to one of my closest friend; she was very upset about the way her relationship was going. She knew the fact that her relationship is not going anywhere still she was sailing through it. No wonder she has to face all those miseries. People often ask me, what is love? The fact is no one in this world knows exactly what love is all about. If they knew then everything would have been perfect in their life. But since everything has a loophole, so it is when it comes to love. People live their whole life with this misconception that love happens once in a lifetime, how it can happen once I always ask myself. We love our parents, our siblings, our friends so how does it happens only once in our lifetime? People have this habit of complicating their own life and then cry over it. But they often forget the fact that because of their deeds they are in any kind of situation. If they happens to be in a good situation then they are responsible for it, and for all the miseries they blame others. How we can forget the fact that we are the creator and destroyer of our own life. How people can blame someone for their own misery? Love is still a mystery which no one has been ever able to understand or unveil. They give their own theories and whichever theory we think defines the current situation of our life, we start believing in it. Why can’t we just give our own theory like so many others? People who made those theories were not the creator of this world, then why we believe in them blindly? Instead of blaming others for our misery why can’t we accept the fact that actually we are not that capable to cope up with the situation and so we always land up in such deep troubles? She told me that when she came into this relationship then that time, she was unaware that it would get so serious, and that’s the mistake most of us do. We talk to someone, we start liking them, we ask them out, we feel good to be in their company and without giving it a thought we end up proposing them. If it gets rejected we spend our life behind it either mourning or trying for it until we find someone better. If it gets accepted then we devote our whole life to make that relationship work out, we compromise with our lives, our dreams, our needs to fulfill their needs and now we are more concerned about what they want from their life instead of what we want from our life. We start caring for that person so much that we forget to think about our own life. If that person is happy we are happy and if that person is sad we become sad. What bullshit is this? Who gave these theories? Who made such rules? No one, it’s us who blindly believe in all such things. It’s not like I have not experienced all such things in life, I have a great experience and what I learnt from it was, whatever happens in our life, we are solely responsible for it.

The reason why relationships doesn’t work out is because when we get into any relationship instead of start spending time with that person all we talk and think about is our marriage prospect, our future planning’s. We never met that person, we are friends through some social networking site, we exchange numbers, start talking for hours and hours and then we start planning our kids even before getting married, forget marriage even before meeting each other people start planning their kids. Isn’t this the most ridiculous thing to do?

Someone told me a very good thing which I remember very clearly, satisfy your own needs before satisfying others need. Because if you are busy satisfying other people needs instead of our own self then sooner or later you will start regretting many things in your life. And we always think that it’s too late to act we end up spending our whole life with that regret. Life is a compromise but not on the cost of your dreams and goals. You spend half of your life behind something which you wanted it desperately and now just because your partner doesn’t like you doing it, you stop working for it. You stop living your own dream, it fades away in one shot and you start doing those things which they want you to do. Why? Who the hell anyone is to govern your own life? Who the hell are you to govern someone’s life? Once you satisfy yourself, you do what you always wanted to do then only you can satisfy others. You cannot compromise on your dreams for those people who are temporarily there in your life. Once you get married then you have to compromise in many aspects but then as I said nothing can be perfect.

If you think that your relationship isn’t going anywhere, take a stand and just let it go. You don’t have to feel bad even for once because you didn’t ditch that person; you allowed them to get what they really deserve in their life. Life is tough, but we can make it easy. When we are in relationship, that person becomes very special for us, we tag them as the only love of our life and when things doesn’t go well, somehow they end up breaking up with each other, then the same person who was everything becomes nothing in a matter of few days? Who are we fooling? We are just fooling ourselves and nothing else. If anything good is going in our life then we often say that’s because I have the love of my life with me at every point, how is that even possible? Whatever you are that’s because you did something for it, not that your lover came and did everything for you. Kick out this notion from your head, live a real life, you are not fooling others you are just fooling yourselves. Doesn’t matter how rough is the situation; it’s never too late to act. How you can give up the dream of your life for someone who arrived a while ago in your life? And who knows whether they will be there with you or not and even if they are why you have to give up your own dream.

Think about it…

to a true friend, a loyal companion

I am known for my weird dreams, since childhood I always had weird dreams and whenever I shared it with my friends nobody believed in those dreams. And so today I had one. The weirdest dream of my life.

I was browsing Facebook when my mom called. As soon as I picked up the call I realized she was crying her heart out. She just said one thing and disconnected the call. It kept on echoing into my ears, “Rocky is no more with us.” He was my pet, a friend, a loyal companion and the most loved member of my family. I was numb after hearing such news; he was not well from past twenty days. He didn’t eat properly and he was kept on saline drips which made him weaker as the days passed. A month before he was full of life and he was the shining star of our family. From past ten years he was the part of our family and as I said the most loved by everyone.

Tears started trickling down my cheeks and I broke down completely. I cried my heart out, screamed, yelled at God and went to sleep. While I was trying to sleep, all those moments spent with me started circulating in my head which made me cry even more. I prayed a lot for his well-being but they were never answered. I cursed God even more and I fell asleep. And this is what I saw,

I was standing in front of a golden gate with the board which said, “Heaven.” I wore a white dress and I saw Rocky sitting outside the gate. As I approached him, a tall figure in white robes appeared in front of me.

“Who are you?” I asked him

“I am the representative of Heaven, people in your world which is my creation tag me as God.” He said

“Am I dead?” I asked him

“No you are very much alive.” He said

“Then why am I here?” I asked him

“You are here because I don’t want another person who believed in me the most to join God-Hater’s-Club.” He smiled as he said

I was confused,

“Of all the human beings why you have called me? There are many believers in your world. Then why me?” I asked him

“Do you recognize him?” he asked me as he pointed towards rocky

“Yes, he’s my rocky.” I said as I choked

“He has been waiting from past many hours outside the door of heaven. There is something that he wanted to convey you all before entering the gate.” God said

Hearing this, my eyes were filled with tears again. However I mustered up all the courage to ask him the reason,

“What is it?” I asked God

“He has been a part of your family from past ten years. And all these ten years he was loved by your family very truly and deeply. You prayed for his well-being when he was not well. You asked your friends to pray for him. But when he left your world and came to me, you kept on asking me questions like why your prayers were not answered? The answer to your question is, I am the creator and destroyer of this universe and everything has a certain limit of their existence in this universe. I sent you all from here and you were born. You live your life, experience everything and come back to me when your time is done there. And this part even though everyone understands but no one follows it. Ultimately I am the one who is blamed for anything and everything. When he became a part of your family, every one of you served him well, he was loved the most in your family, you guys went beyond your own limits for his well-being, and you compromised with your health sometimes but never when it came to him. I gave him certain time limit to live the world I have created and his time of existence was coming nearer so he fell sick. From past twenty days he didn’t eat anything and his condition was becoming worse day by day. I gave him two options – to live or to come with me.

If he has chosen to live, then he would have died anyway after few days because his time of existence in my world was over. So he chose to come with me and live in peace. And the reason he decided to come with me was not because he wanted to live in peace. On the contrary, he wanted you all to live in peace. Though he is a kind of creature who can never express what he is going through but he knows exactly what is going around him. When his health became worse, he saw how everyone of you were going beyond your own limits to cure him, how you all were stressed because of his health and how you all prayed to me for his well-being every instance. He knew no one had a peace of mind and just for the sake of your peace of mind he asked me to take him away with me. But he wanted you to know this and that’s why I called you here. Now you decide what you want to do, you can curse me and be worried all the time, mourn over his death or you can pray for the peace of his soul in the third world. If you chose the former then his sacrifice would go in vain and he will never be at peace.”

God turned towards rocky and said,

“You did your part well; you are a fighter a real brave fighter. You laughed with them in their pleasures and boomed through their disappointments. You experienced everything with them and you took a very brave decision. They will cry their heart out but accept it as a part of fate. But you will always live within their heart forever and ever.”

Rocky turned towards me and came running. I hugged him tightly; God held me by my shoulder and said,

“I know what it is like to lose people but you have got to learn one thing that one day even you will have to say goodbye to the whole world and come to me. And that time even you will wish for the same what rocky wished for. He will be always remembered in your family, will remain intact in everyone’s heart and I assure you he will come back into your life once again in which form that you will have to figure out.”

God turned around and started walking towards the golden gate, rocky followed him.

“But God why you didn’t call anyone else from my family?” I asked him

He turned around and said, “I will let you figure that out.”

He moved his hands in air and the golden gate opened. He crossed the gate and so did rocky. Both of them turned around and the gate closed. As they disappeared after a while, I closed my eyes.

And when I opened them I was lying on my bed. I checked the watch it said 03:09pm. When I went to sleep it was 1:52pm. I took my phone and texted my close friend about the dream, I was still clueless what it meant. I checked the watch again and then it struck me. 03:00pm was the time when Jesus Christ was born, and I figured it what God wanted me to figure out.

I got up, switched on my PC and started writing it as my blog. As I updated it I was sure no one will believe in it and they will see it as some another fictional plot of mine. But what happened with me only I know what it was and what it meant. I don’t owe anyone any explanation.

PS: this is not some fictional plot, it’s a true story.

Moving on is the nature of Life...!!!

He would woke up each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy. By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was going right for him, by the desire to be alone. By evening he was fulfilled: alone in the magnitude of his grief, alone in his aimless guilt, alone even in his loneliness. I am not sad; he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others--the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, fall asleep with his heart in his empty white room, that was no part of him at all. And each morning he would wake with it again, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. . .

Every day when he gets back from his college, he finds himself alone only with his solitude by his side, he feels lonely. He feels miserable; he would curse himself, his fate over and over. He would curse people around him for whatsoever reason. Always he has the urge to call her and ask her, how is she doing? Is she missing him the same way as he does? But he can’t, he has to stop himself and console himself, he explains this to his heart, “dude u have to be practical, a bit selfish too coz to survive in this materialistic world u have to become one of those...” And there goes a long fight between the evil inside him and the angel inside his heart... and then he closes his eyes and let himself drown in the arms of deep slumber, he feels good in his own world of fantasy... detached from the whole world, from all emotions, from all relations it’s just him there... and when he wakes up, again the cruel reality slaps him yet again and shows him that life isn’t a dream where everything will happen according to our choice, life is something else. In simple words, if you make it simple its simpler for you, if you make it complicated its complicated for you...

‎People don’t understand one thing, which is a universal fact that someday sooner or later people are meant to leave us. We have to accept it the way it comes doesn’t matter what the situation was, how true your love was or how great friends you were? It’s the same in every case. When we go through a rough phase we keep on thinking about anything and everything in the most negative way possible. Hence we keep on attracting negative energy which is always present around us and make our life miserable. It’s true that if such things happen definitely we will be sad. But why do people ends up in depression? Why do they start smoking or boozing? Why do they think that they are the only one suffering? And why the hell they detach themselves from all emotions and relations of this world, let alone with their solitude.

Life moves on, doesn’t matter how rough is the situation one day there has to be dawn if there is night. Same way we should learn to move on, come out of the misconception that in a whole lifetime only once we can fall in love. I contradict this; you can fall as many times as you want. And people who tag you as emotionless or easy going let them do that, coz people who can’t move on in their life can’t do anything worthwhile. Life is all about moving on treasure the memories of your past and keep on moving till the time you are freed from this universe. One has to accept few things the way it comes. You can’t force people to be with you forever, everyone has a certain time limit in your life, they will stay till that time comes and then they will leave you on your own. Instead of brooding over it, make that time worthwhile for each and every person who is there in your life. And then see how your life will bloom.

No one is good and no one is bad, it’s the situations which sometimes turn them into an angel and sometimes into an evil. It’s not only you who has problem; there are over 7 billion people all over the world with 7 billion different fates. And each one of them has some issues with life. Nothing is perfect, if it was then there was no need of God or the power which balances the whole system the whole universe. Obstacles are a part of life, they teach us at every point of time. Whenever we face something out of the box then that means there is a need of learning something which we are actually lacking. And that’s how one gains experience, few takes it in a good spirit and use that negative energy to do wonders in life. And few use that negative energy to make their life more miserable. This whole universe works on the logic of law of attraction. There are both positive and negative energies around you, negative energies are more influential and it attracts you more compared to the positive energy. Its upto you whether you want to get influenced by it or not. Sooner or later everyone does or everyone has to that’s the law of nature but who comes out of it matters the most. 

"Life tests you to the core and in those battles you win some, you lose some."

Why Life is so unfair at times???

It was half past two at night, the train was moving at its full speed and everyone was in their deepest of slumbers except the two insomniacs – I and Ishan.

“Only two hours is left and then we will reach our destination!” said Ishan

I nodded in approval.

We were going to Kerala, for our first Industrial tour. This was the first time when our whole class (except few people) was going somewhere together, excitement added a great spice and surely we were going to explore new levels of fun.

“What are you thinking?” asked Ishan

“Nothing” I said

“I am not at all sleepy. What about you?”

“Same here”

“Then tell me the story of your love life.”

“My story is all over my blogs and they are the same old break-up story, nothing new. I haven’t heard any such things from your side. So bring it on.”

“I don’t have any such stories.”

“Don’t lie, you are 20 years old now and I am sure you will have atleast one girl in your life.”

He hesitated a bit but then I probed him to narrate his story, he started narrating his story.

Once upon a time, when I was in 7^th grade I use to stay in Bhuj, a small place in Gujarat. She was my neighbor, Jennifer that’s her name. Her brother became my good friend since we three were the only children in our building we were not left with any other choice rather than hanging around with each other. And nobody had any issues when I use to visit her place. My visit became frequent, every now and then I will knock her door and with the excuse of borrowing some notes I would spend some time with her. Things were going very well and I started liking her. Slowly slowly we became good friends but probably God didn’t like this closeness and so her dad got transferred to New Delhi when we passed our 8^th grade. She went very far away from me and I lost all her contacts. During that time, there was no Facebook or Orkut to find someone, but I didn’t move on. She was still in my mind till the next two years when I passed out my 10^th boards and my dad got transferred to Chennai. I came here, joined a new school made many new friends but she was still there in the back of my mind all the time. But then something happened, something very unpredictable which I never expected. One of my friend, he came to Chennai from New Delhi and he was in the same school where she studied, I got to know this because always he use to talk about some girl named Priyanka and whatever he told me I don’t why he told me, but whatever he told me I was cent percent sure that this was the same girl for whom I have been longing from past two years. I asked him when he visits New Delhi the next time click a pic of hers and show me. He hesitated a bit but when I explained him the state of my heart he agreed. Days turned into weeks and weeks into months and finally he showed me her pic. As soon as I saw the pic the sky fell over my head and land escaped from beneath. It was her!!! I never expected that life would surprise me this way, I cursed god the day she went to New Delhi but today I was at a loss of words. I had no clue how to thank god. This was some kind of miracle or this was my fate I was not sure. I asked my friend to give me her phone number, I added her on Orkut (yeah that time, Orkut was very popular in India) and to my surprise she recognized me at once. Soon we got addicted to each other, we would talk hours over phone, exchange numerous sms, chat on Orkut, not even a single day passed without talking to her. We were getting close to each other and this time it was different unlike our childhood days. She had a clue that I had started liking her but I never had the courage to pour out my heart in front of her. I was basically a big time coward when it comes to this. Soon our 12^th board exams arrived and then the duration of call decreased and so the number of messages. But somehow we managed to cope up with the situation. Days use to be very boring without her messages and nights use to never ending without her call. I use to feel very lonely. After when our exams got over, I felt a sudden change in her. She used to be very silent which was very unusual for a bubbly girl like her. I tried asking her the reason but she never revealed the reason. I decided that the day when our result will be out, I will call her and pour out my heart in front of her. Finally the day arrived; I called her up instantly after checking my result. No one picked up; I tried again but in vain. I waited for a while probably she was busy checking her marks too. Two hours passed by and I didn’t get any of her calls, I tried again but again no one picked up. I kept on trying the whole day and till the wee hours of morning but no one picked up. My heart beat grew faster; sweat bead appeared on my forehead. Negative thoughts started circulating into my head. I couldn’t resist anymore and I ended up calling on her landline number even though she told me not to call on her landline I did. I dialed her landline number; with every ring my heart felt a pang. Someone picked up, I didn’t recognize her voice.

“Can I speak to Jennifer?” I said

“Who are you?” she said

“I am her Friend, Ishan.” I said

And the next moment all I could hear was her cry,

“What's the matter?” I asked anxiously

“I am her mother beta; Jennifer is no more with us. Last night she committed suicide because she failed in her board exam…”

And the phone fell from my hand, body became numb, I couldn’t feel anything for a long time. I sat there on the floor, kept on staring at the phone. I could still hear her mom’s voice. Tears trickled down my cheek and I cried, till when I don’t know. My head became heavy; all those memories spent with her started circulating in my head. I was broke, for the first time I mustered up all the courage to pour out my heart and the day I decided to tell her everything god took her away from me for once and for all.

There was an eerie silence; all we could hear was the rattling sound of train. I excused myself to the door and light up a cigarette.

“That was the most unpredictable thing that ever happened with me.” Said Ishan

“You didn’t get a chance to even pour out your heart, why god is so unfair?” I said to myself

“I know what you are thinking, that I didn’t get a chance to pour out my heart in front of her. I couldn’t tell her that I loved her. But you know something I don’t have any regret for that. I accept the fact that I loved her, she was very close to me but more than that we were great friends. And doesn’t matter if she had any feelings for me or not, that is not important at all. The pain of losing a best friend is way more than the pain of losing a lover, because in future you may get many lovers but friends like her, you get once in life. And I lost her forever. She couldn’t bear the pressure of failure and ended up committing suicide without giving it a thought what will happen to those people who were close to them. And that’s my story. My Incomplete story…”

“I am sorry buddy; I shouldn’t have probed you so much to tell me.” I said and took a long drag

I was regretting now, that why on earth I asked him about it. How he must be feeling now? I cursed myself.

This is life, which proves out to be very unpredictable all the time…

I ask God, why is it so???

Why our life is so damn unpredictable???

Why true love stories are left Incomplete???

Why??????????????????????????????????????????