Valentine week: #4 Ooopppss I fell in love…

Today I confess one thing about this valentine week, posting real life love story every day is not a cup of tea as I thought it will be. And how I have missed posting two stories twice this week. Today I was supposed to share story number six for this week and end the week tomorrow with the final story. However I promise you all that I will be sticking to my word and by the end of this valentine week you will have seven real life stories to reflect upon, or who knows even more.

There is a small story behind this story which I am going to share. I was quite clueless after sharing three love stories, I was clueless about the fourth one. I won’t kid you, I really was short of few stories so that I can compile this week with seven love stories. And I had gone to Bangalore for few days where I met a friend of mine from school days and he shared his love story which was intense as well as quite interesting and then something flickered into my head and a smile flashed over my face. Yes I got the other one was my first thoughts. So let’s not beat around the bush and come directly to the story…

It was during those times when internet became a fashion, social media was something which was really new in our world and everyone was crazy about Orkut. People used to be so active on Orkut, and feel so happy checking their scraps, testimonials, comments and community. It was an extension to their same life. It was something unusual, something different and that feeling gave immense pleasure to so many people. When they could re-connect with their childhood friends, relatives it was a beginning of a whole new era. And that was the time when a guy named Amit met Tanvi over Orkut. Before you start expecting that they fell in love as soon as they came across each other then I am sorry to disappoint you. The case is very much different from what you have thought so far. Amit was a kind of guy who was not bothered about getting into relationships or flirting around with girls. Although he was not even gay. He was in ninth grade at that time. And his thoughts were completely different back then, if I am supposed to put this in some way then he was someone who would run away from the spot if any girl spoke to him. He was way too shy when it came to talking with girls, and moreover he was too busy in his happening life to even care about having girlfriends unlike his other friends who were literally going gaga over girls. So one fine day he came across this girl Tanvi in one of his community on Orkut, and they started hating each other from the very first day. Neither of them knew the reason, it was a feeling of hatred, something which came naturally to them about each other. Whole day both of them used to be busy knocking each other down and one of them would win at the end of the day. And the next day was followed by the same thing all over again. This continued almost for the next two years, when one day Amit decided to keep everything aside for a while and talk to her. Because he had too much of fights with her and he was literally done fighting in his life. He had never fought with anyone so much before in his life. And when he began talking to her, she was confused why all of a sudden Amit was talking to her so nicely. And in this confusion of their changed behaviour towards each other was the reason behind the start of their friendship.

And with the start of their friendship, Facebook became quite famous and took over Orkut. Things were upgrades, from scraps to wall, and a much more secured account with so many different applications and games attracted more people towards it. And so they shifted their gears and began chatting with each other almost daily. It used to be a normal conversation, trying to know about each other well. Most of the time both of them had the same feeling that they were so wrong about each other before when all they used to do was fighting with each other like cats and dogs. And it gave them a chance to unveil the other side of each other which both of them liked and their friendship was being nurtured quite well. After two years of fighting around it took Amit another two years to ask her number. He was damn too shy to do that as well as quite scared. Several thoughts used to keep circulating in his head, questions like what If she says no, what if it ruins our friendship used to disturb him a lot. But somehow he even managed to do that one day. He asked her number and she gave him without asking about anything. And then he realised what kind of dumbass he has been all this while breaking his head over so many things. He never thought it would be so easy to do that. It just required a bit of confidence. However they hardly used to call each other. And after passing his 12^th grade he went to Bangalore and joined an engineering college. She was still in Delhi. While going back to his hometown from Bangalore during his vacation he met her for the first time on Delhi airport. He asked her if she could drop by to meet him as his connecting flight was from Delhi. She didn’t hesitate a bit and turned up on the airport. While in his head, it was another fight going on with so many thoughts which made him quite nervous. As this was the first time in his life he was going to meet any girl alone. So he had to be impressive as well as confident. But she knew how Amit was and she made sure he felt quite comfortable in her company. It was a nice time spent together and then he boarded his flight for his hometown.

Once he was in his hometown, they started talking with each other on Facebook, Skype, text messages, everything which was available. But they never called each other. They always wanted to but always left it on time. And one day suddenly he got a message from her which said, “Why didn’t you say anything last night when you had called me?” and he was confused. He checked his dialled list immediately to find her number in the middle of night. And he realised maybe while sleeping he had pressed call button. But what a coincidence, he might have pressed the button while sleeping but the thing was why only her number out of so many in his contact list. So he decided to call her that night and explain her what happened with him last night. That was the first time they were going to talk over phone, and they ended up speaking with each other for the whole night. Both of them were enjoying each other company so much that neither of them even thought about the time. And when they checked the time then they realised that they have spent the whole night on phone. And since then it became their habit, with every day passing by they started spending a lot of time with each other. They started sharing everything that used to happen with them during the whole day, discuss minute problems and other issues of life. And that was the time when they realised how comforting it was to be in each other’s company.

And one day during their one of the conversation she asked him something out of the blue.

“Can I come to Bangalore to meet you?” said Tanvi

“What? Really? Yes sure come if you can.” Amit said

“You know something I have never experienced a kind of life that you live, away from parents, sneaking into hostel at late nights, having fun with friends, going on long drives. I want to experience it all. So I want to come there and spend some time enjoying my life with you.” Tanvi said

“Hmmm. What I can say? I would just say one thing, if it is possible for you to come then do come to Bangalore.” Amit said

And suddenly a week later she was in Bangalore. She called Amit and asked him to meet her. She was staying with her brother. Amit was nervous, that day it took him almost two hours to get ready. Somehow he managed to meet her on time. She was looking way too gorgeous, and that was the first thing which came out of his mouth.

“You look gorgeous.” Amit said

And she blushed. That was enough to make him understand that his compliment made her quite happy. Amit had already planned everything for her the same day when she told him what all she wanted to do. She was in Bangalore for a week, and Amit made sure that he does everything he could to fulfil her wish. And soon the week was over and she was supposed to leave the next day early morning around 4 am. They met each other the last evening and when she was leaving for her brother’s place she asked him something.

“Can I hug you? Because I know that even if you want to hug me you will never say that.” Tanvi said

He didn’t say anything and she took it as his approval and hugged him tightly. It shook his whole body, blood started rushing everywhere. This was the first time he got a hug from any girl and not just any girl, lately he has started liking Tanvi a lot but as always he was way too shy to say anything. She hugged him and left for her brother’s place. He stood there for a while. He felt different. It was something magical which he never felt before. And he was sure now about one thing that he has fallen in love. But his mind was not ready to accept that. He has not been like this before in his life, he was totally different, he was someone who used to think that relationship and love is a waste of time. But he couldn’t believe it how this happened with him. And that too with someone whom he hated so much in his life. He fell for someone who made his life hell in his community on Orkut. This was something unbelievable for him. And he reflected on those four years how things have changed so dramatically for him. After a while he took a cab and left for his hostel. He was experiencing the magic of love now but the thought that she will leave for Delhi tomorrow morning and he had no clue when he will meet her again gave him a thud in his stomach. He called up his friend who knew about his feelings for Tanvi,

“Dude she hugged me. What am I supposed to do now?” said Amit

“Nothing just go and propose her you idiot.” He said

“Okay.” Amit said and hung up the call

“Bhaiya please turn around the cab, I want to go back from where you picked me.” Amit said

“What????” the cab driver was perplexed

“Fast Bhaiya, it is really urgent. Take a U-turn now.” Said Amit

And the cab driver took a sharp U-turn and drove back to her place. As soon as the driver took the U-turn he saw her sister’s car coming from the other side and he got so nervous that he asked the cab driver to take him back to his room. But he had to propose her, doesn’t matter if he couldn’t meet her at her place he decided to meet her early in the morning around 4 am at the airport. He didn’t tell her anything, he wanted to give her a grand surprise. He booked a cab for early morning, ordered a bouquet of red roses to be delivered at the airport around 4 am and whole night he was sitting on a chair so that he shouldn’t fall asleep. But if that would have happened then it would have become too predictable and easy for him to confess his love. And no wonder why he dozed off. When he woke up, it was already 7 am, she had left for Delhi and his whole plan has flopped. He had no clue when he fell asleep. He was shocked how things has turned out so differently. Whatever he plans everything just gets spoiled. Before this day, while she was in Bangalore during that week he took her once to Hard Rock Café where he made arrangements with the guest band so that he can propose her in front of everyone. He even held her hand and moved in the front to see the performance of the band and when the time came for him to propose her, he was too nervous to do that and he left. Today he was regretting that. If he would have done that then today this wouldn’t have happened. However he left it on time, and waited for the right moment to arrive.

And the right moment arrived very soon, the next day after what happened he decided to propose her when they were talking over phone, that night after so many years of fighting, arguing and so many great moments they shared with each other, he took the initiative to sum up the whole thing and present in front of her as a gift of love for her in his one sentence which seemed magical for her.

“What if I tell you that I like you?” Amit said out of the blue

She became quite now. For almost five minutes she was quite which gave shivers down his spine. All they could hear was each other’s breathe. And after five minutes of the wait finally she broke the silence,

“And what if I tell you that I like you too…” Tanvi said

And again there was a moment of silence for another five minutes.

“Is it only liking or is it love?” asked Tanvi

“Both of them are same thing know.” Amit said

And both of them started laughing. Yes finally he had proposed her. He had said what he always wanted to say from a long time and she accepted it. Even she wanted the same thing to happen perhaps. And that night when he told her that he actually tried twice to propose her when she was in Bangalore, she couldn’t help but kept on laughing on his state. And when he told the U-turn story then she told him, “You could have still come to my place and proposed me. I could have come down.” And he felt like an idiot for not thinking about that. But still what is destined to happen that happens no matter how hard you try. He never thought that after knitting all those proposal plans so meticulously he will end up proposing in the most stupid way. However that’s other thing that it didn’t happen the way he wanted, he always wanted to propose her in a grand way. But in that moment of happiness both of them forgot about the whole world and kept on talking with each other the whole night.

And it became their habit to spend the whole night over phone until unless someone used to doze off in the middle of night. But after one month or two they started feeling the heat of their relationship. Whenever either of them used to be busy it always erupted a fight between them. And sometimes it made him think, maybe this was not his right decision to get into relationship. But she was someone who would never leave him at any point, even after fighting with him she would call him and ask him whether he had his dinner or not and if not then she would make sure that he eats his dinner. And that moment Amit would feel that she was someone so right, so nice, so beautiful, and so lovely. She cared for him and so did he.

A few months later, he decided to meet her in Delhi to spend their first valentine day together. When he gave this news to his brother, his brother was so excited to see who this girl was who changed the thinking and mind-set of his brother, even he came to Delhi along with one of his cousin. Amit reached Delhi a day before the Valentine’s Day where he saw Tanvi with loads of present probably for him. And his brother and cousin were already waiting for him. Amit introduced them to his girl and they booked a cab from the airport. While sitting in the cab, Amit was sitting in the middle, on one side Tanvi was sitting and on the other side his brother was sitting. His cousin took the front seat. As soon as the cab left the airport Tanvi gave him seven presents, each for every special day of the valentine week. He was delighted to know that she took care of every little details and actually she got him present for seven days. And she kissed his cheek wishing him happy kiss day. Amit got all worked up as his brother was sitting beside him, he was feeling way too shy so he whispered into her ears, “my brother is here…” he kept on whispering that into her ear and suddenly he felt something over his lips. He felt something warm, he didn’t even realise when she kissed him. It felt great, it was something which was magical, he was speechless he didn’t know how to express this feelings in words. And some feelings are such that you can’t express in words, to experience such feelings we kiss the one with whom we are in love. And they had their first kiss on kiss day in a cab. And after spending the valentine day with her, he came back to Bangalore.

Even after facing few hurdles which came in their way they kept aside their ego and followed each other’s heart. Their love and care for each other was enough for their relationship to sail through all the rough phases, all the tough times, and all the storms that they came in their way. It obviously took a toll on both of them for a while but soon enough they came out and they came out of all those troubles with flying colours. And that was time when they realised that fights and issues are a part of life, but that doesn’t change anything in their relationship. Soon enough they overcame the feeling of possessiveness for each other, the insecurities that they had which usually spoils any long distant relationship was no longer present between them, they started giving each other enough space so that no one feels that this relation has become a burden for them. What all was left was just love and care which brought them even closer and finally made them believe in one fact that it was destiny which brought them together and they are supposed to be together. From strangers to friends and from being friends to someone so close to heart was a kind of indication that they are supposed to be together. All they need to do is love each other unconditionally and walk together in this walk of life.

When he was done with his story, I felt glad. I didn’t know that someday he would be in a relationship. And knowing the fact that both of them have overcame so many negative feelings which usually spoils people relationship made me feel really glad about their relationship. And that was the moment when I decided to share this story for this valentine week. However it is also my destiny that I came across this story in the middle of this valentine week when I was actually short on stories. It was my destiny to listen to his story so that I can share this with all my readers.

  

Valentine week: #3 Long Live Love!!!

Before I start with another story, I would like to apologize to all my readers for not posting anything yesterday due to my unavailability I was not able to write anything for yesterday. As I mentioned that every day this week I will be posting one real life love story, being unable to do that yesterday I apologise. However I will make sure that I compensate for my unavailability and give you another heart wrenching story for this week. The story that I am going to share today, is one of the most heart wrenching story, which I am sure will pierce your heart and make you believe in love even more.

The story is about two people who fell in love with each other. Although there was nothing dramatic about how they fell for each other but what happened later on was something which I can never imagine and made me believe in one thing that if you love someone truly then doesn’t matter you are with them or not, you will love that person forever and ever.

“There’s only a week left for our marriage. How are you feeling?” she asked him

“I don’t know. It’s something which I can’t express.” He replied

“When will you leave from your office?” she asked him

“In sometime, have loads of work to finish off before I leave.” He replied

“Okay. Then complete your work and go home as soon as possible its quite late now.” She said

“Yeah. I love you.” He said

“I love you too.” She said blushingly

It was around 2a.m at night, when her phone started vibrating. She checked her phone, it was a call from his number.

“Hello” she said in her sleepy voice

“Do you know Dr. Vivek?” said someone from the other side

“Yes. Who is it?” she asked him

“He has met an accident. Are you his relative? I found this number in the last dialled list. We are in Fortress hospital, ICU unit. Can you come here now?” said the unknown guy

“Whaaaat??? How is he? What happened to him?” she got panicked

“I can’t tell anything for now. Doctors are trying their best. Although he is critical. Are you his family member?” said the unknown guy

“He is my fiancé. I will be there in sometime.” She said and hung up the call

She took her car and drove her way to the hospital as fast as she could. She parked the car and ran towards the ICU unit. And there he was lying on the bed unconsciously, with several pipes attached to his body, heart pulse fluctuating a bit too much.

“Are you his fiancé? I am the one who called you. He met an accident on the highway. Perhaps he was returning home from his work. A truck collided with his car and I was passing by so I took him here.” Said the unknown guy

“Thank you for everything. What doctors are saying about his condition?” she asked him

“I don’t know really but they look tense. I have been trying to ask them but they don’t say anything at all.” Said the unknown guy

“Oh shit!” she said and tears started rolling down her cheek.

It was something which was not in her control. She was crying but effortlessly. It was all pouring out from her heart. She started calling his family members who were also in the city. In sometime everyone from his family arrived there. After she saw his mother who was soon going to be her mother in law, she broke down in her lap.

“Have faith in god beta, everything will be fine. How this happened?” she said

And she told her what happened with him. Hearing that everyone got panicked but somehow they tried to control themselves and keep up their positivity alive.

“Nothing can happen to him.” Said his mother

After few hours of wait, finally doctors came outside from the ICU with their heads down and sadness all over their face.

“How is he now? Is he fine? Tell me doctor how is he?” she asked the doctor

“We are very sorry to say, we couldn’t save him. Lots of blood had lost while coming here but we tried our best to save him. I am sorry.” Doctor said patting her shoulder

And then she fell on the ground hearing that, it seemed as if the world has come to an end for her. She started screaming, yelling, cursing the god; kept her hand between her legs and cried uncontrollably. Her mother in law hugged her and both of them kept on crying. She couldn’t believe her fate. Whole life she was running away from love but it kept following her. And when she finally decided to tie her knot with someone she loved intensely then god took him away from her. It was only one week left for their marriage. All the preparations were done, everything was set and then this happened.

“Why it happened with me? Why???” she said

No around her had any answers. Everyone lost someone, someone lost his brother, someone lost their son and she lost someone with whom she wanted to spend the rest of her life. She called everyone at her home and gave them the news. In one stroke the whole happiness of two families was taken away by fate or by god. No one knew what wrong they did that they had to face such adverse situation.

Days passed by, she was still in the trauma of his death. She took leave from her hospital, came back to stay with her parents and whole day she used to lock herself up in her room. She wouldn’t eat, she wouldn’t meet people all she did was cried over her loss with his photo in her hand all the time she kept on mourning. Everyone in her family was shocked when life slapped them in their face but they wanted her to come out of this trauma. Everyone knew it was very tough, almost impossible to come out of it when it was just a week left for their marriage. But they can’t give up, they had to be strong. She needed someone’s support and they had to be strong enough to give her that support.

She became weaker day by day, she was depressed with her loss and that changed her a lot. She was more silent than usual, sometimes people didn’t even know that she was also present in the room. Her presence was not noticed by anyone. She isolated her from everyone and went back to Delhi so that she can be alone with his memories and no one around her to show her sympathy.

One day she got a call from his mother, she still treated her as her mother in law.

“Hello” she said

“How are you beta?” said his mother

“I am fine. How are you?” she asked her

“I am fine too. Beta I wanted to talk to you. I got to know about your condition. I know this is very disturbing but also inevitable. We can’t change what already has happened. It was god’s decision which no human can change. I have also lost my son, but I have lived my life. You have your entire life in front of you. I want you to think about your marriage. I can’t see you in this condition. You can’t give away your life like this. Things have to change for good and even he would wish for the same that you move ahead with your life.” Said his mother

“I understand everyone’s concern for me but please don’t talk about marriage and all. I can’t just forget him and marry someone else. I loved him a lot. For the first time in my life I loved someone so deeply. Maybe it’s not in my destiny to love someone. Whole life I spent studying and achieving goals that I have set for myself. And when I realised that, I was already in love with him. And that’s why I wanted to marry him. I can’t marry anyone else. Even though I couldn’t marry him but he was my life. And I can’t think about sharing my life with anyone else now. I am sorry mummy but I have to go now. I have some work.” She said and hung up the call

Everyone in her family left her on her state for almost six months but then parents can’t see their child in such conditions. It pinched them every time they saw her mourning in his memories. And they wanted her to marry someone. She came back home for a week. And all her siblings were there to convince her.

“Why don’t you marry someone? It’s not the end of your life. Things happens in life which changes the course of life but does that mean we should stop living.” Said her brother

“And we can’t see you in this condition. I know it’s a huge loss but you can’t give up on your life.” Said her sister

She was listening to what everyone had to say quietly. She knew there was no use of arguing with them. They would never understand that what he meant for her. He meant the whole life for her. And how she can live if she don’t have her life with her. When everyone was done, she got up quietly, went to her room, locked it and started crying all over again holding his photo in her hand.
It was the last day of her vacation and she was supposed to leave for Delhi in evening. Whole week everyone tried hard to persuade her but she didn’t say a word.

“What have you decided about your life?” asked her father for the first time that week

“There is nothing to decide. She has to marry someone. We are not asking her to marry now. But maybe a year later or two she should marry someone. I don’t want to die with this stress in my mind that there is no one to look after her.” Said her mother

“I know every one of you care about me too much. But I am telling you one thing now and I don’t want to discuss about it anymore. I can’t marry anyone in my life apart from Vivek. He was my life. Whatever happened it was meant to happen. But what will happen in future is purely my decision. And I am not going to come back here at all if you keep on persuading me to marry someone else.” She said

“But why can’t you marry someone else? It’s not like he was the one guy left in the world.” Said her mother and that pinched her

“What will you do? You have your whole life in front of you.” Said her father

“I will dedicate my life for what he believed in. I will study further. And I will dedicate my whole life in saving people’s lives. I am a doctor by profession and that’s is my only duty now. And I didn’t sign any contract with him that I will love him only if he’s alive. My love is eternal and pure. It can never be replaced by anyone else. I loved him unconditionally and so did he. Even if he was in my place then he would have done the same thing. I can’t betray him for my happiness. We decided to live our life together and we will. Because he is with me maybe not alive in this world but he is alive in my heart, in our memories and I can spend my whole life only with his memory.” She said and left for airport.

It’s been almost fifteen years now of his death. She has achieved a lot in her career and has dedicated her life for humanity. She is one of the best surgeons of the country now. And she only comes back home to sleep, sometimes not even that. She has not given herself enough time to even think about the tragedy that happened that night. But sometimes it still haunts her. She still loves him and her love is an example which I usually had given to people around me.

By sharing this I am not trying to prove any point. Its good to move ahead in your life, you can’t always stuck at one point. Moving on is easy when your boyfriend/girlfriend breaks up with you. I often reflect on this point, and ask everyone to move ahead with their life when they face break ups in life. But what will I do if I lose someone whom I loved so intensely in my life forever is something I still can’t figure out. Maybe I will do the same, spend my whole life with her memories. Because she didn’t leave me, it was our destiny which took her away. She is still committed to me while her time was perhaps over in this world and she had to go. Or maybe not. Perhaps I will move ahead with life, given the fact it will take a lot of time to heal the wound, or maybe it could never heal something like that. However thinking about her that if I move ahead with life then maybe it will give her soul peace in the other world, maybe I would even do that. I don’t know. You can never know until unless it happens with you. And I wish, I pray that it never happens with anyone else. I pray that everyone who love someone get them forever in their lives.

I don’t want to prove anything by this story. I just wanted to share this with all my readers. Maybe I have left you feeling loved. I have only one piece of advice for every one of you out there. Respect your love, nurture it so that it grows quite naturally. Fights and misunderstandings are a part of life which will happen with everyone. But just because of some silly absurd reasons people end up their relationships. Don’t do that, if you love someone, love them unconditionally. Try to understand each other, instead of imposing things over each other. If someone requires some personal space give them. Don’t think in the other way. After all we all are very different from each other. We are not the same. Our nature is different in some or the other way. Try to overlook the flaws and love for what you like in them instead of pointing out what they did wrong, make a note of what they did for you to make you happy. Live happily and face the storm together, its life which always gives you shocks with surprises. Hold on with each other during the shocks of life and jump over each other with the surprises that life has in store for you.

Today is Promise day, and I want you all to take a vow that you will become a better person than how you were. You will make sure that the person you love should never feel dejected, if something goes wrong you will hold their hand and walk till the end. And if you don’t love someone, then kindly don’t spoil their life just because you want to show other people that you have a boyfriend/girlfriend. You have no right to play with anyone’s life. And never have the thought of taking revenge, it’s not what you should give in return just because they did the same to you. Forgiveness is way greater than anything else in this world.

Thank you…

Valentine week: #2 How can I move on when I’m still in love with you…

I never thought that I would ever dedicate a whole week for love stories. Although I had a tough time figuring out the real life love stories to put on my blog, I managed to get few of them somehow. Today I am sharing a story, it’s about one of my friend who fell in love with a girl but when life started testing them he had a tough time dealing with it. Not always every love story is complete. Sometimes they are just left incomplete.

“Why is she doing this?” he asked me

“You brought this up upon you, you can’t blame her now.” I said

“I know but is that really so easy for her to move on with life, knowing the fact that I am not able to.” He asked me

“It’s not easy for anyone to move on with life, but when life don’t offer any other choice they do it, willingly or unwillingly that doesn’t matter now. And she is not doing this for her, she is doing it for you. Can’t you see that?” I said

“But I still love her.” He said and broke down

I know this was going to be tough, it’s not easy to forget someone. But this was because of his mistake. She loved him unconditionally and whatever she is doing now it’s because he asked her to do it. Almost two years ago they fell in love, both of them were in my class. Nobody was aware about what was going on between them, they kept it between them. In college they never showed what they had for each other, until that day when unknowingly I ended up reading his message on his phone and the world turned upside down. Perhaps if I hadn’t read his message then we would have never came to know about their relationship. And we were happy when we came to know about our friend. But somehow directly or indirectly our happiness was the reason which triggered things quite dramatically and maybe because of that he was in dumps now. When they kicked off with their relationship, both of them were enjoying it to the core until one day when he brought this topic out of the blue.

“What about our future? He asked her

“What about it?” she said

“Do you think we will able to cope with our situation knowing the fact that our family would never accept love marriage?” he said

“I don’t know, I don’t want to think about it because it might ruin just everything that we have.” She said

“I am telling you now only, let’s not get that close so that later on if something bad happens then that should not bother us at all. It’s better to cut a small plant rather than cutting a big tree.” He said

“But why you say so? We can think in the other way, what if it actually works out?” she asked him

“No that won’t happen, I know my family. It’s not possible. You should move on. This has got no future.” He said

“Why you are saying like that?” she said

“Because I don’t want to get hurt and I don’t want you to get hurt.” He said and hung up the call

Next morning, I was going out to have tea when I saw her coming. She was literally sobbing quietly and walking towards me. She was in some other world and didn’t notice me coming. As soon as she saw me, quickly she wiped her tears and passed a smile. I couldn’t resist.

“What happened? Why are you crying?” I asked her

“Nothing. Just like that.” She said and left

I was perplexed. I was confused. What on earth has happened that she was crying? I knew something has happened between them. But no one would tell me. I tried asking him a lot, what is the problem between you two but he never replied. And same was the case with her. The problem with my nature is I can’t see my friends in trouble, and when I saw both of them ignoring each other, updating sad status I felt bad. Because we insisted him a lot to propose her. However that’s other thing that he did it without even telling us and we found out later on. Perhaps we crossed the line and pushed him a lot. And that made me feel terrible. Although I have never told him about this, but deep within I always felt bad being a silent observer of whatever was happening between them. They used to bunk lectures and meet in library to discuss their issues. There was no such issue, it was something which was created by them. If they wanted to enjoy their relationship, that would have happened quite easily. But they chose to think about what will happen after ten years and made their life living hell.

Who knows what will happen after ten years. Maybe things will be same as it is now or it will be completely different. Because life is unpredictable, and the more you predict the more your life will go into dumps. But who will make them understand and we decided to leave it on time. I stopped asking him about what was happening between them. And gradually we all got used to it. Until we went for another college trip when he was expecting her to forget everything that happened in past and enjoy the time with him. But that didn’t happen. And he started feeling bad. He was the one who asked her to move on, and when she did, it was him who couldn’t believe it. He tried to move ahead but that was tough for him now. And knowing the fact that she had already moved ahead, it made him feel more terrible. Often he would call me and cry over phone. I had no answers for him. What I can do? Nothing really. I blamed him also, because sometimes we just go overboard thinking about our future and we do some stupid things which makes us feel miserable later on in life. I always told him what you are doing is not right? But he would never listen. I tried explaining him, it’s not about thinking about the future now, and it’s about enjoying the present. Because we are way too immature to think about marriage and all that stuff at this age. We have lots of things to do in life. Instead of brooding over it, just enjoy whatever little time you get with her. And when he realised it, maybe it was too late. When she wanted to enjoy their relationship that time he was the one who was running away from it. And now when he wanted to enjoy the trip with her, it was too late. She had already moved on, but still she kept a straight face so that he shouldn’t feel bad. But sometimes we can know things even if you don’t tell it. We can feel it. And that feeling made him so miserable during the trip that sometimes I got pissed too. But he always had one thing to say, “How can I move on when I am still in love with you…”

It’s the nature of human beings, when everything is going fine we always tend to poke our nose and turn the situation the other way and then cry over it, blame our fate and often we curse god. Why you did this to me? But they don’t understand, it was not their fate, not their luck, not god that made things so terrible. It was them. I hope one day things will be fine between them and whatever is left incomplete in their story is completed with time. Time will heal everything, when things don’t work the way we want it to, we should leave it on time and never lose hope in ourselves. And even if it never works out the way we wanted then it’s better to move ahead rather than crying over it. You can love someone, but you can’t impose things on someone. Learn to be more kind and forgiving, shit happens in life always but it depends how we react in such situations. Sometimes people commit mistakes, it’s up to us whether we want to forgive them or not. Sometimes things turns quite dramatically, it’s up to us how well we understand the criticality of the situation. It’s always about how well we make choices in life.

You ask if it hurts badly,

I say it don't.

You ask if everything is fine,

I say it ain't.

You ask if I can live apart,

I say I can't.

You ask if I will love again,

I say I won't.

You ask what did I lose,

I say I never won....

Poem courtesy: Rishab Kankaria

 

 

Valentine Week: #1 Old is Gold…

Before I start with the story, I would like to share my thoughts behind this idea which was initiated by a fan of mine, to dedicate the whole valentine week with seven different real life stories. I don’t write just because someone asks me to, I write when I get the mood, when I get thoughts in my head. But when I met my fan personally and gave my first autograph of my life, this is the least any writer could do for his readers. So this one being an exceptional case, for that unknown girl who is so mad about my blogs and who sees me as a hero, as someone who motivates her when she is low, someone who shows her a right path to follow her dreams, and someone who cries because things are disturbed in my life. So whatever I will write this whole week, it is dedicated to all my readers, all those people who love reading my blog.

 

 

The first story that I would like to share for this valentine week, is about those two love birds who dared to fall in love with each other when the odds were totally against them. When there was no such thing called cellular phones, Internet, Whatsapp or any other communication channels which would minimize the distance between them and keep them connected with each other in the toughest of all times. In those times, falling in love was a big deal for people unlike today where we switch our relationships as if we change our clothes. With time somewhere deep down love has lost its essence. With the advancement of technology, and the mind-set of people the theory of love has been changed quite drastically. So I planned to bring back all those fond memories of love in this valentine week. So that we can understand love in a much better way, and love someone unconditionally. As soon as we get into relationship we have our own expectations, we want few things to be in a certain way without even giving it a thought about the other person. We forget to give them their space and waste plenty amount of time over phones talking nonsense for hours and hours. People think if phone rates are low then we can talk more. Rates are low but does that mean you have enough to talk to each other? And then you have to answer them also why you don’t have anything to talk? You can’t have exciting things happening every day in your life. If you give each other their own space and talk with each other once in 3-4 days then the excitement and thrill of the relationship is always maintained, the essence exists always. But they don’t understand, no one does. They take things for granted and then one fine day when the relationship doesn’t work out, they end up blaming each other, abusing each other. They don’t see what they did that turned things around for them, they don’t see where they went wrong. Whenever a relationship breaks it’s not because of just one person, the ratio of their mistake might be different but there can never be a situation where the guy was entirely right or so was the girl. They never analyse themselves, in case of girls the guy was a bastard and for guys the girl was a slut. When everything was fine they were angels for each other and as soon as either of them turned their back they turned into the worst person in the world. I hope to see this mind-set of people changing, I hope to see people loving each other unconditionally, I hope people to understand that no one out there is perfect but if we try we can make our relationships perfect by exercising a good mutual understanding, giving each other space, helping each other out in tough times and the most important one, trusting each other and let them live their life the way they want to live. You should understand one thing, if you are in relationship that doesn’t mean it gives you right to control each other lives. And even after so much of your effort it doesn’t work out then accept it as a part of your life which was meant to happen, you will be satisfied because you know you did your part, you tried to save it to the extent you could try and move ahead with life. The feeling of taking revenge and destroying other people life would land you nowhere.

Having said that, let us now go back in time and enjoy a wonderful love story.

The love story happened in the era of 1990’s when things were so different from how it is now. Falling in love was like going on a war front. But there were these two people who dared to fall in love, irrespective of their caste and family mind-set. The girl was studying, the guy was preparing for competitive exams. The girl use to live with her sister’s family which comprised of her brother-in-law and two nephews. The guy use to live in the same building, and he had a great bonding with the girl’s sister family. So one fine day, the guy comes to their apartment to spend some time with the kids when he saw her for the first time. And as he says, it felt as if nothing else existed in the world. He could hear music like for real, which actually was coming from the radio but the essence of life is things happen at the right time, right moment. The girl was way too shy, and she moved her gaze away and her sister came. They had their normal conversation, the girl was silent than usual. The girl’s sister was very much fond of the guy and she used to treat him as her younger brother and they shared a great bond of brother-sister. The amount of respect both of them had for each other was great. And slowly slowly both the girl and the guy developed a soft corner for each other and without even talking with each other they used to speak their heart out. Great, isn’t it? Is it possible these days?

However life had something else in store for them. And the girl’s sister started suspecting that there was something going on between them which till then was not even in the picture. And so the girl was sent to Bangalore to complete her studies where her dad and the rest of the family lived. She came back to Bangalore and continued with her studies but she left a part of her in that guy’s heart. Something was amiss from her life, even though they never got a chance to talk they were actually in love with each other. And the distance which now existed turned them even crazier than they already were. But that was a time when we didn’t have much of communication medium, the time where the concept of love letter actually existed. And so she started writing letters to him, and so did he. She used to tell him everything about how Bangalore was like, how was her college, how much she missed him, how things were going on her side and how badly she wanted to be with him. He used to tell her about how lonely he feels now, how tough it has become for him to find a good job and how much he missed her. As the time passed, the frequency of letters started increasing. And even that was not easy, she had to hide all the letters so that no one else can read it. She has to make sure that whatever was happening should be kept as their secret. Everyday use to pass in the wait, the wait for his letter to come. When it will come she has to make sure she gets it before anyone else. The joy of having his love letter especially written for her in her hand, feeling damn too excited but opening it carefully at the same time so that nothing happens to the letter and reading again and again in the middle of night and imagining how things were on his side. In reply she used to write another letter but make sure she posts it secretly. And the same thing continued for another nine years when finally the guy was well settled in his life and the girl had also achieved what all she craved for. Everything changed around them in these nine years. Cellular phones, Internet came into fashion but if something that never changed was their unconditional love for each other, respect for each other. Even though they were miles apart the distance never bothered their relationship which now is one of the most common excuse for any breakup, saying oh it happened because long distant relationship never works out. They don't work out because you don't try hard enough for them to work out. And when I say try hard enough it means both of you will have to work on your relationship, if you want it for your life.

So they had to confront this in front of everyone. And it happened one fine day. It was during the time when the family started looking for her groom, and that’s when with the help of her sister and brother they brought this topic in front of the whole family and so did the guy in his family. They fought for their relationship for nine years staying apart from each other, writing letter to each other which was their only mode of communication for several years until secretly they started talking over phone which used to go very hard on their pocket. But as they say when you have the courage to do something you just end up doing it, without giving it a thought of the consequences which might follow. You don’t think, you just do.

However nothing is perfect in this world and even they had hard times dealing with each other but when there is unconditional love and respect for each other, even the darkest of times passes too quickly. And after the nine years of their relationship finally they got married in the year 2000 and they have been living happily with each other from past 14 years.

I decided to write about this story in first place just because of the beauty of their relationship. These days we can be in contact with each other anytime, still most of the relationships never works out. The reason being simple, the word unconditional love has been swapped by materialism, many people want girlfriend/boyfriend in their life as a status symbol. And few who really love each other either do not have courage to confront their love in front of their family, or they break apart because of some stupid reasons. Also in many cases what happens is after few years of relationship they say they are still confused about each other. Then why you were with each other in the first place? There are a lot other things to experiment about, why waste your time in experimenting with love?

Take a moment from your life and think about this. What is the definition of love? What do you think about love? You want someone in your life who talks to you all the time but doesn’t give you enough space to breathe and is way too demanding. Or you want someone who talks to you when he/she feels like talking to you and their love for you is unconditional without any demands any tantrums. What choice you would like to make?

 

How I Met My Fan…

5^th February 2014, this date will be always remembered in my life as one of the best moments of my life. As usual after college I was heading towards my home. I walked down from my college to the bus stop from where usually I get bus for my home. I was damn too tired that day because of all the work we were doing for our project review. And so I decided to take a Volvo instead of a normal bus. I boarded a Volvo bus as soon as it came. I bought the ticket and took a window seat as fast as I could. I took out my iPod and plugged into my ears and let out a sigh of relief. I was lost in my own world when a girl boarded the bus. She wore a black top over her chocolate color trouser. Almost every seat in the bus was full; I was hoping that she might just come and sit beside me. Our eyes met quite a few times when her eyes were searching for a seat. And she came and sat beside me. She was wearing some exotic perfume which was attracting me more and more towards her. She had a tab in her hand and she was doing something. I tried not to look on her side so I started focusing on the music I was listening on my iPod and was staring blankly outside the window. But I tell you, she was irresistible. I had an urge of talking to her. I don’t know why that was, but I just wanted to strike some conversation with her. I was completely lost in her fragrance. And she got a call on her phone, she picked it up moved a strand of her hair from her face. All this while when she was busy talking on her phone, I was busy observing every little thing that she was doing. I tell you they all say that, a writer’s mind is a terrible place to live in. Damn true. All the time a writer’s mind is busy noticing something, observing everyone around us, analyzing quite deep any fucking situation which sometimes doesn’t even require that much of attention. And when sometimes even you get that mood to write but you couldn’t write because of your other engagements in life. Sometimes you even have thoughts in your head but somehow you are not able to pour out on the paper then that becomes too damn frustrating.  

With every passing second the urge to talk to her was growing more and more. Until when my eyes suddenly checked her tab to see what she was reading and the next moment I don’t know what happened. Maybe a BAAAAAM!!! Or a THUDDDD!!!!

My eyes got stucked then and there, almost ready to pop out with my mouth wide open. I was looking like one dumbass. But I couldn’t help then. It never had happened with me before. She was reading my blog, Incomplete Love Story on her tab. I looked at her face, she was so engrossed into reading and I was getting so excited after seeing someone whom I don’t even know was reading my blog. In past one year my blog page views has increased exponentially with almost 32,000 page views in past one year I was expecting that someday I will come across someone who will be reading my blog too. But it would happen this way, was something I never thought about. And I will be so speechless and expressionless was also something I never imagined in the wildest of my dreams. I was waiting for her to complete reading so that I can poke her. And when you want the time to pass quickly then always the opposite happens. Somehow I controlled my urge to poke her for a while. After when she was done reading the blog, she started texting someone and that took another 15 minutes to get over. Once she was done with everything else and before she could jump to some other thing, quickly I cleared my throat and asked her,

 “So did you like it?”

“Like what?” she asked me

“The blog which you were reading from such a long time so consciously.” I said

“Oh that, yeah. It’s kind of really good and different. Have you also read that blog?” she asked me

“Yeah, quite a few times.” I said

“I like it a lot. I always wait for any new updates and I love reading them.” She said

“Well, thank you.” I said

“Huh!!” she reflected

“Hi I am Mayank Manohar, Author of Incomplete Love Story.” I said

“Whaaaaat?????” she squeaked

And now the situation turned upside down. Her eyes were ready to pop out and mouth was wide open. She almost screamed when she heard my name.

“That was some reaction.” I said

“Really??? I mean, oh shit I am so perplexed; I am so so speechless now. Can I pinch you?” she asked me

“Don’t embarrass me please. I am not some famous celebrity.” I said

“Who said that? So many people follow you, you have no clue how many people love reading your blogs, reflect on what you always have to share and even cry with whatever bad is going on in your life. Your blog is something that I always look up for. I always get that inspiration of doing something I love to do and chasing my dreams without giving it a thought of what others might think. I have read all of your blog posts and eagerly waiting for a new one.” She said

I was listening carefully to her; I never thought my blogs meant so much to someone. It felt good, really good.

“You know when you were going through a rough patch in your relationship, when you wrote No Pain, No Gain… I had tears in my eyes after reading that post. And I always use to wonder whether this guy exists for real or its some fictional character. Because I have never seen anyone like you so far. I don’t know how you get thoughts like that. I always had a curiosity to unveil the other side of you.” She said

“Well I am really thankful to you and I am glad that you love my blog. I really appreciate that.”  I said

“So what are your upcoming posts?” she asked me

“I don’t know actually, no thoughts yet.” I said

“Valentine’s Day is coming, are you preparing something for the Valentine week?”

“I don’t know really. I was too busy with my college works these days, never got time to actually think about it.” I said

“Well if you don’t mind, can I give you some suggestion which might help you?” she asked me

“Yeah sure, go ahead.” I said

“How about dedicating a full week to real life love stories? Why don’t you write seven different love stories inspired by real life events and post it one by one for the whole week? This way your blog will get even more popular and since the name of your blog is Incomplete Love Story, people might be look for some love related post on your blog.” She said

“Hmmm…” she had a great idea and in the back of head I had already started thinking about what all and whose love stories will I write. I was really satisfied with her idea and wanted to do it.

“So do you like my idea?” She asked me

“Yeah, it’s brilliant. Thanks for this idea, I am gonna do this. Thank you.” I said

“You are welcome. I wish I could talk to you more but my stop is coming and I have to get down. It was really nice meeting you. Maybe it’s my lucky day. And if you don’t mind, can you give me your autograph?” she asked me

“Wasn’t it too much for her to ask me to give her my autograph? Was I dreaming? Or was I stoned.” I said to myself.

“Well, what should I say? I am speechless. I never thought someday my blog will get so popular that people will be mad for them. And I never thought I will ever give someone my autograph. I still can’t believe this. Can you pinch me once?” I said

And she really pinched me. I was joking about it though. She took out a small piece of paper and luckily I had a pen in my pocket. I don’t even have a stylish signature. However I wrote few words for her and signed my name with a smiley. And her stop came; she kept that piece of paper quickly in her bag and left.

“Hey what’s your name?” I almost shouted.

But the doors were closed by then and she couldn’t hear what I had asked. She waved her hand signaling me goodbye and so I did in return. And I had a big grin on my face. I couldn’t believe my luck. And I don’t know how to express what I was feeling at that moment of time. My eyes turned moist; there was immense satisfaction in my heart and endless happiness. I just couldn’t believe it. Life is unpredictable as I always say.

“When your signature turns into an autograph, that’s success…”