The Best Dream of My Lyf That Faded Away....

Life is totally unpredictable and so is our fate. When you think that now it’s over then and there it slaps you and reminds you that it’s not over yet. Similar was my case because I took everything for granted but one day changed my life, just one day.

I never expected that things would change so dramatically between us but that day it did and changed my life forever. My girlfriend broke up with me or should I call her my ex girlfriend now. When I asked her the reason then she simply said, “It’s not working the way I want…”

I met her for the first time when I was in Hyderabad through a common friend. Our first encounter was kinda okayish. I never thought then that someday she will become so important for me. I told you before you can’t take even a single thing in your life for granted. Within a blink of eye things can change. I remember the day when I proposed her; she was blushing though she asked me to wait for a week or so. Soon weeks turned into months and months into year but her reply never came. It was taking on my nerves and so after waiting for one and half year I finally decided to move on. Maybe she treats me just as one of her friend. And so I decided to move ahead in my life…

Two days later I received one message from her that brought a 70mm smile on my face but at the same time I was in a dilemma. The message said, “hope u’ve nt moved on wanna talk…” The moment I read this message I jumped out of joy. Maybe it was my frustration or the happiness. I still don’t know what it was. I called her up at night and the same happened that I always wanted to happen. She finally said yes to me and yeah we were in relationship now.

One year passed by and things were going smoothly when one day she asked me something and I was speechless that very moment.

She asked me, “when r u cmin to meet me…?” and I couldn’t say anything to her then as I was not sure when I would be able to meet her. However I decided to visit Mumbai (that’s where she lives) even though I had to lie to my parents. Besides meeting her the other reason to visit Mumbai was her mom. On 17^th dec 2010 there was a pooja at her place as it was her dad’s first death anniversary and no one from her family was coming. So her mom asked me if I could be a part of it she would be happy. I didn’t give it a thought, next day I booked my tickets and I reached Mumbai on 17^th morning.

When I was boarding the train she ordered me to call her when I reach Dadar station and from there she would guide me how to reach her place. So I reached Dadar station around 4am. Instead of calling her I called up my sister (who’s our common friend) to guide me as I wanted to give her a nice surprise. My sister asked me to catch some local train, get down at the respective station, take an auto for the address that she gave me and call her then. I followed her instructions and I was standing in front of my girlfriend’s apartment. I called her up and told that I am waiting outside for you, she came downstairs running and when I saw her the earth stood still for a while. I spent the best ten days of my life with her almost 24*7 we were together.

Finally the day arrived when I had to leave. I was busy packing my stuffs when she came to me and asked, “Can v go for a walk?” I couldn’t say anything to her then I just nodded her and we went for a long walk. Before leaving she hugged me twice, I noticed there was tears in her eyes. I bade her goodbye with a flying kiss that her mom noticed and smiled. I promised her that I will come again as soon as I get a chance. I reached my home safely and spent the rest of my holidays at home. But then things were not the same, it started to change dramatically…

There use to be fights for no reason. She was busy when I needed her and when was there, her mood was not. This use to piss me even more and the argument use to get started which was followed by huge fights. Someone use to hang up the call every now and then. We were going through a rough patch and I wanted to resolve all our problems before Valentine’s Day. I couriered her a box of chocolates, a sweet card along with a love letter that I wrote for her. But unfortunately it didn’t reach her that day. After two days she finally got my courier and she was on cloud nine. She was happy and so I was but her exams were coming nearer. I had to stop calling her at night as she wanted to study. From 18^th feb to 9^th march I use to call her for hardly 5 mins or 10 mins.

Soon her exams got over and I was happy as now she would be able to talk to me properly but something else was written in our fate. Out of nowhere her brother came to visit her place and again I was not able to talk to her properly…

Again our fights had started, the same hanging up of call and we discovered a new thing within us and that was our ego. Ego was taking a toll on us and we were sailing through it.

It was just like another Sunday when I got another shock. She messaged me which said, “I knw m dng wrng wid u, but dis has no future.. Its gng nowhere nd I want 2 end it. I want 2 conc on my studies nd other parts of lyf. Dat is possible only wen v part away. I cnt take it anymore. Plz move on….”

I read this message and my hands were shivering. My heartbeat went faster and tears started rolling down my cheeks. I called her up but there was no response, I messaged her but her reply never came. Everything that I did for her and for our relationship started circulating in my head. Those moments we spent together, those sleepless nights when I use to skip my dinner so that I can recharge my phone and talk to her. The money that I saved to visit Mumbai. Those lies that I had to tell my parents because I wanted to meet her.

It took her few minutes to take such kind of decision and message me, but it will take my whole life to gulp it down my throat. I had to give up as I was helpless. I couldn’t do anything just kept staring at my fate. Sooner or later I will have to accept this bitter truth of my life. But one thing is sure that doesn’t matter if she comes back to me or not, nobody can ever take her place in my heart.

She wants me to move ahead in my life. Maybe she would be happy then. My fate has slapped me yet again and I am helpless. Life is so unpredictable. When you think that now everything is fine then this bloody fate always shows its true color.

The best of my life has faded away and I kept staring at my bloody fate…

“There’s one thing, you’ve got to learn,

Life’s full of twist’s n turns.

You’ve got to break rocks in the hot sun,

For the tides to turn.

If there’s night,

Then there has to be dawn.

O-O-O Life goes on……”

When I held your hand...

When I held your hand, the sun shined
Murky waters glistened, I was over joyed
Ectasy crept in, nothing else mattered,
Still remember the day, I was in tears.


]When I held your hand, our hearts came closer
In your mystifying eyes, I helplessly wandered
And as I danced to the tunes of Love,
There were moments I truely savoured.


When I held your hand I said a silent prayer,
That we would be together and together forever
You gave me a reason to smile
Enriched my life & made it worthwhile.


And as I still hold your hand
and walk over the golden sand
I make a promise, I'll hold your hand
and walk a thousand miles till the end.

Short Story [PART I]

It has been quite a while and i didn’t receive any call from her. I was getting irritated now. She was supposed to arrive an hour ago but there was no sign of her. I tried her number it said switched off. Her mum has called me at least twenty times and this was making me more pissed off. It was anything then my phone rang, i tell you one thing the moment my phone rang my heart started beating faster. I took my phone out and it was her call. It said “lavanya calling” and i let out a sigh of relief.

“Hey where have you been?” i roared

“I am about to reach. Where are you? Are you there at the station to pick me up?” she said

“Yes i am.” I said and disconnected the call.

I was still at my place and she was about to reach. She is gonna kill me now. I jumped off my bed, took my wallet, and rushed downstairs where i found my cousin Ayush and Piyush sipping something.

“Where were you asshole?” said Ayush

“Nowhere. I am going to station; lavanya is coming, so in front of her behave like gentlemen.” I said

“No need, bhaiya is off to station already to receive her with chote papa (my dad).” Said Piyush.

“What? How come they got to know about her arrival?” I said

“I don't know. But Pranay bhaiya said he’s going to receive some of your friend who is coming alone from Mumbai.” Piyush said

I didn’t replied and i moved out. I was still in a state of shock; nobody knew anything about her arrival then how come they got to know.

Lavanya was my friend and she was coming to my hometown to meet me all the way from Mumbai. I won’t fake you here; she was the love of my life. She knew everything about my feelings but she was not ready for any relationship yet. So we were very good friends for now. She was the only one who stood beside me in my hard times and was always there with me in my happy times. I was in love with her from past 16 months and i was ready to wait for her for the rest of my life. She always use to say that i am mad. It was quiet true, i was mad in her love.

Pranay bhaiya, Piyush and Ayush were my cousins who were at my place for few days. Even my elder brother Mrinal was there but at that moment he was not at home. Everything was fine but one thing, which was eating me, was how come Pranay bhaiya and my dad got to know about lavanya? Let her come i won’t talk to her. I went upstairs and entered into my room i got a call from Pranay bhaiya.

“Hey where the hell are you?” he said

“At home. Where are you?” i said

“Lavanya is with us and we are coming in few minutes.” He said

I was least interested about her now. She didn’t even bother to tell me anything. Let her come i won’t talk to her. I sat on my bed when i heard some noise downstairs. Finally, she has arrived and everyone was damn excited to see her. After a while Pranay bhaiya came to my room,

“Hey she is waiting downstairs for you and you are sitting here? What’s the matter with you now?” he said

“Tell her i am not interested in meeting her. How come you got to know about her arrival? I thought i would go and receive her.” I said and he understood why on earth i was so pissed off.

“Oh so that’s why you are so pissed off. Actually when you were enjoying your nice nap she called, you were in your deepest of slumbers so i didn’t bother to wake you up. I received her call and she told me everything about her arrival. I conveyed the same to chote papa (my dad) and he asked me to come along with him to the Railway station. That's it it’s not her mistake. So for god’s sake now, go and meet her. And get ready we are getting late for that show.” He said

“Yes sure” i said and rushed downstairs.

When I reached downstairs, i found no one there except Piyush and Ayush. I searched the rooms but no one was there. Suddenly my phone started ringing; it was my elder brother Mrinal on the other side.

“Yes” i said

“Hey i am sorry.” He replied

“Sorry?  But why?”

“Actually we were getting late for that show so mum asked lavanya to get ready and we all are on our way to that show. I know you wanted to spend some time with her so i am sorry for that i couldn’t argue with mum then.” He said

“Whatever” i said and disconnected the call

Now i had a reason to be pissed off. But before anything else, i wanted to meet her. I wanted to meet her and i just wanted to meet her. That's it. So along with my cousins i went to some place for someone’s musical show or some crap like that. We reached after an hour there and i found it hard to believe my eyes for what i saw next. The moment I stepped outside the car, i saw one huge building with no elevator and the only way was the staircase, which looked like a million stairs. I looked at my cousins and they were pretending as if they knew that place since their birth. The show was going on the top floor. We started climbing stairs and after a while, i was panting like a dog. After all the eee’s and ooh’s i managed to reach the top floor. But fate had something else in store for me. When we reached the top floor, we got to know that the show was going on in the ground floor. God was testing my patience and i decided to be calm out there. Without giving it another thought, i rushed downstairs as i was getting irresistible to meet lavanya.

Finally, we reached the hall where the show was going on only to find it was over as we were busy climbing stairs. I hardly cared about the damn show all i was worried about was lavanya. I was afraid that she might have left with mum and my elder bro but fortunately, they were still there as i saw my mum there. I stepped inside that hall and as I was walking past a group of people, i heard someone calling out my name. I turned back and couldn’t believe my eyes, it was SRK. My god Mr. Shah Rukh Khan was calling me. I stood there numbed when he came and hugged me. I didn’t say a word there I was too numbed to do that. All i wanted to do was meet lavanya that's it and in front of her, nothing seemed to have a meaning. So i asked Mr. SRK to wait as i have to meet someone and he understood what i was talking about. Even he has fallen in love with someone at some point in his life. People go crazy to meet these celebrity stars, no one gets this chance again in their life, but i refused it coz it didn’t seem to have a meaning in front of her. Nothing seemed to bother me when she was there with me. We spent countless hours on phone calls, sleepless nights in texting one another yet we use to miss each other like anything. But the thing was it was one-sided traffic, she didn’t have such feelings for me. She loved me as her best friend, the best thing in her was, knowing the fact that how much I care for her, how much I love her even though she didn’t reciprocated the same feelings, she had respect for my feelings.

So coming back to the story I had just refused SRK to meet coz I wanted to meet her. I saw my mum and went straight to her. And to disappoint you again I couldn’t meet her there. She was in the washroom and while I waited for her to come out someone told me she already left with my family. I was too tired to think about any other possibilities so I took an auto and made my way back to my place. I reached my place and rushed inside. I didn’t ask anybody about her as I was afraid she might again disappear with my mum or who knows maybe with my dad or cousin or oh god what has happened to me. Am I making sense? 

TO BE CONTINUED...........