When you meet Isolation…

There comes a time when the world doesn’t exist for you. A time comes when nothing seems familiar, when you want to get underground for a time being. A time comes when you don’t want anyone around you. A time comes when you want to be completely alone, all by yourself. But this materialistic world won’t even let you do that. Behind everything they have their own personal agenda. No one actually cares what you want; people just tend to impose things on you. If you are smart enough you move aside but you are one emotional fool then it’s easy to fool you. And you become the victim. And when you become the victim you start cursing around. You curse God, your friends, loved ones and in the end you end up blaming yourself for being fooled. Then what? You have two choices: either you get isolated or be what you are. Stick to the rules you made earlier. But what you get in return, pain in either way. You are the one who will be on the suffering side. When the world kept on chanting and yelling in your ear, that don’t expect things from anyone apart from yourself then you didn’t believe it. But when you saw it happening around you, then you were shattered. You feel like a stranger now, amidst of all the people who seemed familiar to you a while ago. You start counting things you did for people, like waiting for them at the bus stop; teaching them a night before the exam, giving your notes, saving your lunch for them, planning an outing such that everyone becomes a part of it. You do it because you feel that it is your responsibility to do that. That’s what we do right, live a selfless life in a selfish world. When you had a choice to become selfish you chose the latter option, and now you regret. Even now if you try to be one of them you can’t because you have lived a life so far with a different attitude. It’s hard to bring a completely different attitude in between out of nowhere. The reason behind this being simple, you don’t want to upset your soul. Because if it happens with you that you turn into one of those people then you will never have a peace of mind. So now you can’t change everything, so you lose whatever you earned so far. And then you move on, because you think that’s the best thing to do. And life is all about moving on. But why life is all about moving on? What about those relations that you earned? Do they have any meaning? If not then why it was so crucial for you? And if they have a meaning then instead of working things out why we always run away from the fact. Later on we label that phase as, something which was not in our fate. If everything was depended on fate then why you go on to people and lent a hand to help? Why you make friends? Why you go to someone whom you like and ask for a date? Because now you start believing in something, you start believing in karma which is on a parallel line with fate. And somehow you try to make a connection between them that if your karma is good then you end up witnessing the magic of fate. But both of them are two different things. Fate is something which is inevitable and karma is something which leads things to happen. Fate may not change but karma changes with your deeds. That’s what our mythology says and so says the world. But still we mix both of them up and make a whole new thing.

Since our childhood days, we have learnt that everything in this world has two faces: head or tail, good or bad, angel or demon. But we are always unaware of the third face of this world, which is the worst of them all. And that is being neutral, if you are more on one side it is good for other people to deal with you. But if you are being neutral then you are unpredictable and you end up hurting everyone around you, even then you are not even bothered about it. All you think about is the situation where life is easy for you. The good trait always leads us to something good and the bad part always leads us to something bad. But the phase between these two changes the world of other people upside-down, and they can’t even blame anyone because they don’t know that there is a third face of this world which exists in real. I name it, the devastating phase.

So what we can conclude here now? I don’t know if I am making any sense or not. As we grow up we should stop depending on others. Walk alone if you have to, because no one will be taking up your responsibility, no one will be bothered to greet you if you don’t earn well and no one will be sharing your death bed. Stay aloof if you have to, because you will never regret the time that you spend with yourself. Life gives us few dots; it’s our choice how we connect them. And what price we pay while connecting those dots to complete a life worth living.

"So far what I have learnt about life is, when you starting expecting things from anyone it screws you even more. It’s better to stay aloof rather than being somewhere where you don't even exist."