Today, after a long day at work when I came home; I watched
a movie – ‘Pele Birth of a Legend’ and I realized something. Not that only how
the legend turned the style of playing football but most importantly how it is
important to believe in ourselves.
And when we do believe in ourselves then we make history. I have
been fighting a battle within myself from a long time. I stopped believing in
myself. I stopped embracing the quality that makes me different from others and
started doing what I was asked to do. I stopped writing for myself.
I have been giving excuses not only to myself but also to
the people who love to read my blog that how I am not able to balance between
work and writing.
The truth is, I cannot live a day without scribbling
anything. And I realise why I have been feeling so lost lately. Because I have
stopped embracing and enjoying what I love to do the most.
Not long ago I gave a direction to my life but a feeling of
suffocation started trapping me inside the walls of my mind. The chain of
thoughts that flowed smoothly once, now had difficulty to even flicker. I started
muddling with it.
Perhaps, sometimes all you need is some inspiration and I have
been looking for one since a long time. It is true the world does not work the
way you want it to be. Things are not black and white. There are grey areas
which dominate the world. But then we need to understand that unless we do not
embrace the quality that makes us different from the world we are not going to
make a difference.
102 sportsperson took part in the most precious event of the
world at Rio Olympics and I was disgusted how the people of our country started
accusing the players after they couldn’t bag a lot of medals. We started
comparing it with other countries and how we have failed as a nation to make a
difference at the global event.
But why we forget that at the time when these players needed
our support the most we kept blaming them for not meeting our expectations. Why
we always fail to believe in ourselves and start doing what the rest of the
world is doing.
The movie is based on the journey of Pele but it also
explains beautifully how the lost tradition of Ginga helped them to make a
difference at a time when they were in the middle of a worst phase. There is a
sequence in the movie when Pele’s father is dropping him at the bus station
before the world cup and explains the importance of believing in oneself. And how
important it is to enjoy whatever you are doing.
You may not win every time and it is important to fail
because what failure teaches you, success never will. But when you fail, you
rise. You emerge from the darkness and shine like a bright sun. So bright that
the world shares your light and help to emerge from their dark phase.
There are numerous things which keeps us holding back from
taking a step further and also many of us are afraid to take a risk. To fall. To
gamble. Because we have a habit of living a secured life and we don’t want to
get out of our comfort zone.
But when we manage to get out of our comfort zone, the
possibility of winning is more because at that point of time there isn’t
anything holding you back. You always give your best possible shot. Even somehow
if you fail, you know that you have given your best.
Someone once told me, whenever in doubt just start walking
and soon you will realise which way you have to go, which route you must take
and keep walking until you find your own path. Life is short and time is
running way too fast. I can’t even imagine how quickly this year has gone by
and 2017 is only a few months away.
There are times when I am so scared that what if I am not
able to do things that I want to do. But then I start walking again and I find
my path again.
But there I was from past so many months not willing to take
that extra walk and not ready to let go of things that I must. Today, when I am writing
there is this immense pleasure and satisfaction. I am not holding anything back
while pouring out my heart here even if I may not make any sense. I am enjoying
this feeling of to be able to do what I love to do the most, again. I am
writing for myself.
My friends from college always believed that I may not
become an engineer but I would do something meaningful with my writing skill. And
I still remember the day I told them about the new part of my life, I could see
the grin on their face and happiness in their eyes. I knew it, I was on the
right path.
Nothing wrong has happened since I got here in Delhi. I have
been doing well. But it pinched me every day whenever I felt the urge to jot
down what was going in my head but couldn’t. With time, I started getting used
to it. Instead of working towards it, I stated ignoring it. And that was the
reason why I felt lost at times, I was not myself for quite some time. Maybe, isolated
myself for a while to figure out what the heck was wrong with me.
But then there was nothing wrong. I just stopped embracing
the little moments of life that used to make me happy. And I was missing this.
Don’t be afraid if you are not like anyone else because you
are someone. It is great to be different. And you will win someday. And in this
hope, I have started walking again, holding on to what I have and hoping that
someday I will find my path, again.
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