One day I will shine!

It’s been almost four months of struggle where I am trying hard to get placed in some good company. But every time something or the other goes wrong for me. In my case, I think it’s my marks. Every time in every interview everything goes pretty well until they come to a point, why you have such low grades? And then everything goes wrong from that point of time. Why people don’t understand one simple thing it’s not about the marks all the time, it’s about the potential that anyone has; it’s about what someone is capable of. But who cares, that’s how the hierarchical level of our society is, if your marks are good even though you don’t have knowledge or other quality which completes you as a person, even then you are on the top. But if you lack just one thing and that’s good marks in your academics then you are no one. I hope someday the mentality of people along with the system should change. I know so many people who do not have good grades but they are capable of doing such things which the university toppers can’t do it, but they are being ignored. I feel bad, I feel sorry, and I feel miserable.

But when I look back, to the stories of all those people who are now legends. Every one of them had something similar in them. They all were ignored by the people, by the society. But when they shined they changed the whole dynamics of every field they went into. And that’s when I feel good, I feel content and I feel optimistic. I have seen so many ups and downs in my life till now but every time something bad happens with me, I have to get up and fight. And I did, every time I did fight against all the odds and came out with flying colors. It’s something which has become a trait in my life that until my life is in dumps I never get up and change things for good. And again the situation is similar now. The situation is demanding me to get up and fight. And I am fighting. But somewhere down the line there is only one thing which is going wrong for me, is that I am being judged on the basis of my marks. I know that’s very usual but not every time it should happen. Because even elastics have a breaking point. You can’t stretch something to that extent and expect it will never break. Everything has a breaking point. But who understands that. No one seems to care what all I am going through. People commit mistakes and so I did. Does that change everything? Does it make things so worse?

I am tired of fighting again and again. I can’t get proper sleep; I don’t have a peace of mind. And I am angry all the time. I don’t with whom I am just angry all the time. Sometimes how I wished, why can’t I get things so easily? I have known so many people who got everything in their life without much of all the fighting and surviving. They are just too lucky. Why I can’t be lucky at least some time in my life?

But one day I will shine too. And when that happens, the world will have a new story to tell, a new personality to motivate and a new perspective to look at. Till then I know I have just one thing to do and that is fighting against the situation.

As they say, “When things starts going wrong for you, it will become worse. And wait until it becomes worse, because you will never shine as a diamond if things were easy for you.”