To small steps towards the unknown...

I have not been posting regularly from quite some time, I don't even know if that is even a matter of concern for anyone. I would have thought this way had it been any other day and ending up doing everything except writing.

But today, when my blog page views hit a lakh views, I couldn't help but wonder maybe it is too small a blog but it has been read a lakh times and it shows that irrespective of whether anyone reads it or not, I should continue posting on my blog.

Honestly, I don't have anything much these days to write. Constantly, I am stuck between balancing my work and the writing part and most of the time the former wins while the latter has to wait for its moment.

So today I thought I would just share a story. A story about how I got into this writing thing and how this blog started. I do not have any other fancy idea either way.

I never thought the day I started that I would write again on this blog but it has been seven years and I am still here. Explains why this means something to me.

I never thought the day I penned down my thoughts for the first time that I would someday make it my profession.

Life holds surprises for us and each one of us has their own set of surprises meant to keep you hydrated for the rest of the journey.

It was in the summer of 2009, when I was back to Patna, my hometown from Hyderabad after spending two wonderful yet disappointing year of my life, trying to train myself to reach where everyone else were randomly running.

I had failed to clear any of the engineering entrance exams, which was my key to the next door. I was actually sad despite knowing that is not what I had in my mind.

And I decided to stay back and prepare one more year so that I get through those exams while the world kept moving at its own pace.

That day I felt I am standing among the crowd, waiting for something to which even I was oblivious. But the feeling of just waiting while the world moved didn't go well down my throat.

And that was the time when for the first time, I penned down my thoughts in a diary. It was about what I was going through and yet I knew I couldn't tell a soul because I didn't know how to explain such thing to anyone. I was not confident about my own decision.

Although I started my blog in 2009, I was not regular till first half of 2013. In these years, hardly I have posted anything regularly. As per my estimation, I wrote maximum 10-12 posts in these years.

And I came back to my blog again in 2013, when I was unable to get through my placement drive. In all these years, my feeling to move into writing had grown stronger than how it was back in 2009.

I was sure about my own decision and I knew this was my last chance. Every day I used to share what I was feeling, writing aimlessly for people I don't even know but with a belief that it will somehow strike a chord. And it did. And we are in 2017, with over hundreds of posts and a lakh views and counting, I think I have achieved something. A little but something precious. Something that I can keep with myself for the rest of my life. And that's why I am pouring this out today to make it a memory.

That one day when I look back I know how it felt to achieve a small goal yet feel so happy about it.

Ups and downs are a part of life. We all have our own share of struggle which only we will have to deal with it, irrespective of the time in life, it will keep hitting us. The question is whether you want to enter the battlefield and fight your battle or you want to stand down and do what everyone else is doing. Whether you want to see the reality or you are happy in your own simulation programme.

From engineering to journalism and soon to be a published author, I guess I have faced my own battles and more are yet to come. I will try to keep fighting the battle I have chosen and one day let out a huge sigh of relief.

Till then I will keep meeting you people through this way or another. Stay in touch and thank you for being so patient.

To,

One Lakh Views 😄