Memoirs of a loving heart...

"You remember how they show it in movies and narrate in novels, the feeling of being wished for; the feeling of belonging and the feeling of love. It feels exactly the same way with you.

The late night conversation, which never seemed to end. The calls, for which we used to wait the entire day. The morning, which always started with your thoughts and night that always ended with your voice echoing in the back of my head.

I always said that I never felt the way I feel it with you, every ounce of my soul reciprocates the love you have for me. You were never hesistate of showing your scars to me, I was never afraid to tell you about my fears. We both have been haunted with the memories of our past and dementers of the present but holding on to each other has always given us the strength to fight the unknown. After all, not all battles are fought alone and not all battles are won alone.

Life is complicated, yes, if it is easy; it is not life. We always have to fall to find ourselves back, to rediscover the person we are and to rediscover our lost ambitions. Else we will never be able to find our true self, if we don't fall.

But there are also instances when people fall and they fall so hard that they don't wish to get up and they end up spending their entire life in regret.  

We commit mistakes, so we can learn from them. We come across certain things we wish to have but we know it is not worth the effort, and so there are times when we have to make a choice - a choice to define the life we want., a choice which may be harsh but it only gets better with time.

Not even a single day has passed since I know you, when I don't think about you. Your thoughts reside within my soul and whenever I close my eyes, I find you. I promised you when you asked me, what will I do when you get lost? And I stick to my promise that whenever you will fall, you will find my hand to help you to get up; whenever you feel you are lost, I will be waiting by your side to figure out the way ahead.

Because I love you and I know that my life without your presence is too boring to live for. But I will never wish to chain you with me, if ever you felt that you have to choose between me and your happiness, always choose your happiness. Because I don't want you to lead a life, full of regrets. Even if I am not a part of it, I will be at peace knowing that I didn't become the reason behind your tears.

There have been times, when we were struck by lightning. And yes, it scared the crap out of me. Not only the fear of losing you but the fear of you getting lost. You always took the blame, you always told me that you fear of becoming someone you are not and like always even today I say that I will always refuse to believe that.

Because there was a time, when I was lost. When I walked through the same path you are on. And people turned their back on me, pointing out that I have too many sins on my soul to be a part of their world. And I walked that path alone, I learned that there was a lot more to me than only what I was judged for. And no matter what happens, no matter how big the mistake you commit; I will always have your back. And I know you will do the same for me.

Whatever happened, it had to happen maybe to understand our value in each other's life. Maybe it was a test of time to see what we do, when we get struck by lightning. It happened maybe to understand to what extreme we were willing to go for each other's happiness. And yes, I know that we stood strong against it and I know that it will take some time for both of us to move past this but through that journey which lies ahead, I am not going to leave your hand.  

I will hold you and wrap you in my arms, when the nightmares don't let you sleep. I will listen to everything you have to say and I want you to talk about everything that you feel, everything that you think about and everything you want to say but you hesitate thinking it might pinch me. For me, nothing else matters more than your happiness and that's what love is all about. It is not about conquering or winning or losing, it is only about keeping the other person happy and caring for their happiness.

Whatever junction we have crossed, it was a part of our destiny. For I have travelled to time to the future, where I have seen the future you and the not-bald future me. And I remember clearly what your future you had to say to me, that find me when you get lost. Maybe it was only a dream, maybe a mixture of my subconscious thoughts but even if it was nothing more than a dream, I will certainly would like to make it a reality someday.

Don't carry a burden with you for whatever we have gone through. Leave that where it came from and if you are not able to then let me share it with you and carry it till the time it needs to be carried so that one day it is not a weight on your heart. Don't think that I am going to look at you with blaming or judgmental eyes. My eyes only have love and immense care for you.

I know there are times when I get annoyed with you or get angry at you but the moment I see you, my anger diffuses and my heart skips a beat. The moment when your lips curve and brighten my life, I will do anything to keep that smile on your beautiful face. The moment your eyes are filled with tear, my palm is going to be resting down your face to capture the drop of tear and you will find your world in my arms.

In a week, our relationship will turn a year old and I wish that it keeps getting old as you always say, sharab jitni purani, nasha utna acha hota haini; with this I rest my fingers. To coming times, to moments we have spent, to storms we have faced, to storms that are awaiting, let us celebrate the togetherness with just two words TM, which not only completes your name but adds my first name in the puzzle and when we swap these two alphabets, it gives out the initials of our pet name. I know such a bad sense of humor I have. I love you."

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